Ezekiel 36:26 A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.

Psalm 118:22 The stone which the builders refused is become the head stone of the corner.

Exodus 17:6 Behold, I will stand before thee there upon the rock in Horeb; and thou shalt smite the rock, and there shall come water out of it, that the people may drink. And Moses did so in the sight of the elders of Israel.

Because of these three verses and others, a thought occurred to me about our Lord. We broke His heart. It breaks His heart that we would reject Him. That others reject Him. This is a harmless thought. I am not trying to create doctrine here. I am not espousing any new theologies based around these verses. But the thought caused me to feel something relevant to me, it was within me.

No one else has to see this, or accept it for it to be a real feeling for me. I do not have to preach it, or teach it, or defend it before others. It is personal and harmless. I do not have to test it with my counselors, my pastor or anyone else. It is as much about me as it is anything. Personal.

So why bring it up here? Perhaps because I wasn’t always the man I am today. There was a time I was insecure in my faith life. I would have these moments and it led to uncomfortable conversations in which I put others at risk. I didn’t have the maturity at the time to deal with the new found relationship that had with my God. I thought that if others did not see it, it was not real.

Your feelings are yours. As long as you feel better, happier, more secure, and you can take away from scripture readings a positive attitude, what does it matter what others think? You do not have to build doctrine on these moments. It could be nothing more than you and God sharing a moment, giving you something to smile about. There is no harm in that. It is yours, a positive thing.

Acts 10:38 How God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Ghost and with power: who went about doing good, and healing all that were oppressed of the devil; for God was with him.