John 15:5 I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

I got nothing this morning. Not one word from the Lord. If I cannot bring you a word from the Lord what does that leave me? Nothing? What am I supposed to do with that? It is a place many Christians find themselves every day I suppose. Am I supposed to feel what they feel in this moment? Am I supposed to gain some insight as to how others deal with this moment? I don’t think so.

I was one of those Christians. I can remember how it felt to wander through life until something went wrong and then cry out to the Lord. Somewhere along the walk I discovered I was meant to serve. There was never any mention of vacation, time off, a rest in my schedule. This is not a job, I don’t get paid for what I do for the Lord. There is no reward for service.

What I feel is this. If I have to do this without You Lord, I don’t want to do it. This feels like cruise control. No foot to the petal, no tension in the legs, ankle or foot. The pressure is off. But what should I do with the direction for this devotional?

I am the one who committed myself to do a devotional every day. The Lord never mentioned anything about a schedule, calendar, days on or days off. I am the one who committed myself. If I am not true to myself, is that failing the Lord in service? No, but it denies the me I want to be.

I was a slothful servant. I do not wish to be that any longer. I have nothing to prove to the Lord, but perhaps I have something to prove to myself. So this is about me and if you get to understand me a little bit better, then that isn’t all bad.