Colossians 1:11 being strengthened with all power, according to his glorious might, for all endurance and patience with joy;

After admitting to my frustrations yesterday I find myself lacking joy in patience.

What is blocking my joy?

I suspect it is hidden in the long wait for any glimpse of hope I have to a positive answer to my prayers. I have discovered a side of me that worries about things that are not within my control.

My past is fraught with actions that were completely out of control, rebellious, defiant, and absent of any concern for life.

Praise be to God for this life in Christ that has taken me out of the darkness and delivered me into His Light. He has changed my heart and bow it feels. It feels everything and finding my way in control is difficult at times because the power to exert change lies in the hands of the One I serve.

Pray yes, but finding joy in patience is difficult for some of us “in control”.

Reading in Colossians this morning I find myself wishing I have others praying for me as Paul is praying for them.

Colossians 1:9 And so, from the day we heard, we have not ceased to pray for you, asking that you may be filled with the knowledge of his will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding,

Perhaps, and I say this without any real confidence, that it is because I have not said that prayer for others. Those of us that see ourselves “in control” tend to overlook blessing others to gain the wisdom and understanding we think we have.

I again hear the words of a mentor at this moment. “Let go and let God.”

God is “in control”. Obedience of faith is not control, it is faith facing uncertainty.