Isaiah 59:4,9 None calleth for justice, nor any pleadeth for truth: they trust in vanity, and speak lies; they conceive mischief, and bring forth iniquity. Therefore is judgment far from us, neither doth justice overtake us: we wait for light, but behold obscurity; for brightness, but we walk in darkness.
I can only speak for myself and wonder if anyone else feels the way I did and do. Did was a boy without understanding, without light, who would not be subject to any man. Do is a man who loves the Lord walks in His glorious light and knowledge is found in seeking truth from He who is true.
What hasn’t changed is this ingrained sense of justice. Make no mistake, I am a sinner saved by grace and I have suffered the consequences of my sins. I have not been judged by man and none shall ever hear me confess my most heinous sins. My conscience is clean only by the blood of my Savior Jesus Christ.
I find conflict within my soul for the justice I love and the mercy I have been granted. I would have justice done but my Lord declares to me that I must render a righteous judgement. I am left with this overwhelming denial of the mercy shown to me because I cannot see enough goodness in the land.
Psalm 27:13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
He is here and His goodness does exist but that sense of justice within me cries out, “Not enough!” There is not enough goodness in the land and we all suffer because of it.
I cry out to a lost and dying world to seek God while it is still called today. Confess your need for the salvation offered thru Jesus Christ and yet I still feel “Not enough!”
His grace is sufficient for me, yet justice still cries out.