Jeremiah 12:13 English Standard Version (ESV) They have sown wheat and have reaped thorns; they have tired themselves out but profit nothing. They shall be ashamed of their harvests because of the fierce anger of the Lord.
I am ashamed of what I wrote and was about to release for publication this morning. It was written about a month ago when I was tired and hurried and planning on taking a vacation. I did not do it with the same care and concern as I should. It was a reflection of my exhaustion. I had not been sleeping well. I was not taking care of myself and that is no excuse for poor performance.
I know my tendencies when I am tired. I warn others that I am not at my best. I become intolerant, impatient and I fail to be gracious. I get critical. What I wrote I have erased because it was not acceptable to me. It was a reflection of a servant who is reaping thorns.
I had two choices and I chose the poor one. Here is the right choice.
Matthew 11:28-30 English Standard Version
28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
I know how to do this and I chose not to because I was concerned about the labor and not what the Lord wanted in that moment. Entering into His rest, taking on His yoke allows me to be gracious and humble. He makes the labor easy because He does all the work and I become unburdened. I do not have to be ashamed of what the Lord does.
I am ashamed of what I have done. I will not burden you with my problems.