Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

If seeing is believing, then what is believing without seeing? Some would say faith, but I do not. I do not subscribe to blind faith.

Psalms 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

Knowing that faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word, then faith is led to go and do in light, not darkness.

This leaves us with a lack of understanding about “all things” because they include everything that faith is not. They also include my mistakes. I say mistakes rather than sin because it less painful to admit ignorance than willful disobedience. We ought to know better in some cases but being human we are easily distracted by real dangers in our life. Death and destruction move us emotionally and even more so the closer they happen to people close to us, regionally or emotionally.

I am not comforted by words of politicians, news anchors nor pundits. I am only comforted by the One who has proven Himself to me, to be faithful, to love unconditionally and lead me in what to do in the midst of all this turmoil.

Some may think that makes me sound like a baby clinging to my security blanket. So be it. Compared to the One who knows, and does and is; my God, yes, I am a baby. I should have no confidence in myself except that which is shown by faith. If He is strong when I am weak, then let me be weak that He may be strong.

I may not like what I am seeing in this world but that does not make Romans 8:28 a lie. I may not know what is coming next, but how to act, and what to do now will be found in the Word and not in the words and works of men who have no faith to guide them.

Psalm 69:20, 29 Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked for some to take pity, but there was none; and for comforters, but I found none. But I am poor and sorrowful: let thy salvation, O God, set me up on high.

Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

I lost my peace, not because of the news, not because of politics, not because of injustice, not because of anything anyone has said or done to me but because I sinned.

Not trusting God is a sin. It is at the root of all the faithful who do not sin those sins everyone else calls sins, but has sinned his own brand of sin.

Sometimes it is hard to admit sin, after all, I haven’t broken any of the ten. Yet I lost my peace and there is not one to blame for that than me. I know in my heart that keeping my peace is a sure sign I am walking with God, so when I lose it, well, there you go. I have sinned.

I have hurt no one, I have kept my tongue, from all outward signs, no one could accuse me of sin. But I lost my peace, I stopped trusting God about something. For that I have to stop and do a close examination of self and find that place in my heart that needs to be filled once again with the trust I lost.

So this devotional will be short today. I have work to do.

On myself.