I was fraught with indecision, what went wrong?

Once again I begin where I left off and our third version of scripture comes into play.

Daniel 12:4 But as for you, Daniel, conceal these words and seal up the book until the end of time; many will go back and forth, and knowledge will increase.

Many will go back and forth is a sign of indecision. I could relate to that version by my own behavior. The Word was revealing me for what I was and always with purpose. My pursuit of knowledge neglected relationship. God allowed that for a season because He needed His Word in my library of information in order to activate His purpose for me in relationship.

I received the Word but it needed to be activated. That came to me in the awareness that information isn’t relationship. The key for me was in discovering that living by faith wasn’t the same as living by information. I was still making choices for my life that weren’t working. It took a long time to grasp the wise words of an elder, “Let go and let God.” Armed with better information I was still making bad decisions. That is not living by faith.

Romans 10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

I was listening to myself, pursuing my own understanding of the information rather than allowing the Word to reveal itself to me through the power of God. I will not tell you that is easy to overcome. It was difficult for me and it took time but God is patient. For me it began when I stopped chasing information. Daniel’s words, “I don’t understand.”, didn’t take on personal meaning until faith took over.

Truth is revealed, not understood.