John 6:68 Then Simon Peter answered him, Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life.

I am subject to the human condition just as are we all. Things are not perfect all the time. In the midst of my troubled mind I cry out, “Help me Lord.” I have nowhere else to go.

Psalm 139:5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

I couldn’t go back even if I wanted. I do not want to relive the pain of the past, those lost moments that haunt my memories. I cannot say I am thrilled at what I see ahead either. The end goal seems so far away. My final joy is my hope, my strength, my motivation to go on, but here I sit, immobile.

Everything God does, He does with purpose, with a plan, with a will that is unshakeable. His will does not move out of my way just because I am not ready for it. It is now, in this moment, His purpose, that His hand is upon me and I have no idea what He is doing in me. Yet I believe He is doing something.

Romans 9:23 And that he might make known the riches of his glory on the vessels of mercy, which he had afore prepared unto glory,

In this I believe, even if I am not yet fully prepared, even if I do not fully understand, even if His will is not revealed until the very last second. Even if I do not understand this moment, I have to believe that it too is serving God’s will and will accomplish exactly what He has set His hand upon me to do.

I’ve got nowhere else to go.