Psalm 2:7 I will tell of the decree: The Lord said to me, “You are my Son; today I have begotten you.
Today I declare that I remember what it was like before He said to me “You are mine”.
How I was before Jesus haunts me because I cannot understand why I was like that other guy. My rational mind says I was broken and did not know it. I cannot understand those behaviors before Jesus. They are foreign to me. How could I have been like that?
I cannot turn back the clock to examine my brokenness. It feels a little like gaining sight and then never wanting to seek blindness once again just because I can now see the ugliness.
- Psalm 31:12
I have been forgotten like one who is dead; I have become like a broken vessel. - Psalm 34:18
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
I do not want to be blind again.
- Revelation 2:5
Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent, and do the works you did at first. If not, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you repent. - Revelation 3:3
Remember, then, what you received and heard. Keep it, and repent. If you will not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what hour I will come against you.
Even if I should never sin again, I would still have something to repent of because being afraid of getting it wrong and not doing anything is ignoring the work that we are called to do.
Forget the past and live for today while it is still called today.
But exhort one another every day, as long as it is called “today,” that none of you may be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin.
The deceitfulness of sin can be thinking we are so broken that we cannot be used.