Proverb 3:20a, 23 By his knowledge the depths are broken up, Then shalt thou walk in thy way safely, and thy foot shall not stumble.

When you walk in darkness you cannot see what is tripping you up. I don’t think I am out of line here saying we stumble. The darkness I am speaking of is not spiritual darkness but rather mental awareness. It has become painfully aware to me these past two weeks that the past does not go quietly into the night. More than not, we ignore or learn to live with unresolved issues from our past.

I liken it to leaving your stuff on the floor rather than putting it away in storage. You learn to ignore it for the most part. You’ve learn to live with it to the point it doesn’t bother you consciously. But it is there and eventually you are going to trip over it.

What does that look like? For me it manifested itself in outbursts that were not in line with my character. A sharp word, a haughty look, a snide remark, ill humor, or perhaps inappropriate language are all signs that things are not normal, that you tripped on something. You might not even be aware of what set you off. Let me tell you what those things are called, triggers.

It isn’t that you are conscious of why you react as you do but rather that an old hurt is felt and in that moment, it was no longer in the past, it is in the present. We all have them to some degree. Most of us were raised in good homes. Some were raised in neglect and abuse. Some of us got help. Some of us don’t know we need help.

God knows everything about you and wants to help you move away from pain into peace. Not all things can be reasoned out by reading scripture. Not all things can be set right through prayer. Sometimes you just have to see a specialist. If you think of that as being weak, let my say God created specialist for a reason. After all God sent Aaron to Moses to help him with his insecurities.